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Alas, I really want to write today, but suddenly I found that work and writing seem to be naturally incompatible. Although this job is not physically tiring, it is mentally tiring. A lot of communication, a lot of exchanges, and meeting too many people at once. I feel a little confused, and my mind is in chaos all day long. Sometimes I want to break the cage and use my imagination, but I don’t feel like I can express it. The more I write, the more confused I am, and I have no sense of direction. I have a lot of insights, but it is difficult to do them. Since the beginning of this semester, I have encountered too many things. I am worried that I will not be able to do my job well, and then I am worried that I will not be able to satisfy others. I am often delayed by things, and my mind is full of thoughts and chaos.

I need to strike a good balance between work, life and writing.

Before, when I didn’t have so many things to do, I could sleep for two or three hours. Now I find that if I don’t sleep for 12 hours, I feel like I’m dying the next day. I have to sleep at noon, otherwise I feel like I will die suddenly.