Chapter 187 Psychological preparation
"Miss, the hot water you requested."

"Thank you."

Bian Yue took the hot water and walked out.

The sun is shining brightly, and it feels warm on my body, giving me a sense of security that makes me drowsy.

When the driver saw Bian Yue, he ran to open the car door for her. Bian Yue bent down and went in, and saw Li Siheng sitting in the back seat.

His complexion did not look very good. To be exact, every time Bian Yue saw him, his complexion was worse than the last time.

His body was already at the end of its strength, and now he was overloaded with work all day long, which was basically seeking death.

The car drove slowly on the road. Bian Yue handed the hot water in her hand to Li Siheng, "This is for you."

Li Siheng took it and was stunned for a moment. A smile spread across his peach blossom eyes. He stared at Bian Yue and said in an indescribably gentle voice, "Thank you."

"No need, you should take good care of yourself, Li Siheng. You only have one life, there is no need to trap yourself to death." Bian Yue said here with a serious expression, "I hope you can recover well."

Li Siheng held the warm cup in his hand and said, "What you want to say is, you hope I won't join the fight between my father and you."

"Yes."

"Bian Yue, if I were just Li Siheng, I would definitely agree to you, because you are more important to Li Siheng, but I am not just Li Siheng, I am also the chairman of Fengcheng Group, so I say, no, if you are an enemy of the Li family, you are an enemy of me."

They sat in the cramped car, feeling the cold air flowing between them.

Bian Yue sat as far away from Li Siheng as possible. The car windows were covered to prevent people from peeping out. Bian Yue looked out the window, but could only see through fog, which was unreal.

"Are you so afraid that I'll know Bian Shu's exact location?"

"I'm sorry, I don't believe Shen Jinci won't use unconventional means to take Bian Shu away, so I have to take some precautions."

He said it so calmly that the silence between them grew.

Li Siheng looked at Bian Yue's bright and clean profile. She frowned with an uncomfortable expression.

"Are you having your period?"

Bian Yue was stunned, "Yes."

"Drink this cup of hot water yourself. It will make you feel better."

Bian Yue said no, she just drank a lot in the coffee shop and brought this especially for her.

"Bian Yue," Li Siheng sighed softly. He called her name with such deep pain, "Can I apologize to you?"

"What?" Bian Yue was stunned for a moment and didn't react.

"I was in so much pain at that time. I didn't know how to face you. I knew clearly that my father had bad intentions towards you, but I had no way to stop him. My position was too difficult. Bian Yue, I know you don't believe me, but I really feel sorry for you."

Li Siheng was always calm and gentle, his emotions were almost never out of control, and he could always clearly explain his intentions. But at this moment, his speech function was slow, he was at a loss, and his words were confused.

Bian Yue understood his dilemma from his rare confusion in wording.

After a long silence, Bian Yue said softly: "Li Siheng, I have never blamed you. I can't ask you to abandon your family for me, and I can't ask you to give up everything for me, so I just chose a path that may not end with you."

Li Siheng listened to Bian Yue's quiet words, his heart achingly torn inch by inch.

He was speechless. People are selfish and giving up everything for love is a fairy tale.

Li Siheng closed his eyes tightly, opened them again, and returned to his calm state.

He smiled and looked at Bian Yue, and said softly: "Does Shen Jinci know that you came with me to see Bian Shu?"

"He knows." "That's good."

Li Siheng paused, and suddenly rolled down both windows.

Bian Yue was surprised, looking at the towering mountains outside the window that had lost their features.

The car was driving on the mountain road, raising dead leaves.

"Why did you open the window suddenly? Aren't you afraid that I will remember the way?"

"When have you ever memorized the way? Haven't I always been the one finding the way when we go out?" Li Siheng said with a smile, and the next moment, the smile on his face froze slightly.

Yes, in the past.
The young girl Bian Yue relied on him so much that she even forgot the way when she went out.

Sometimes he felt helpless and would ask her why she didn't call the driver. Wasn't she afraid of not finding her way home by running around alone?
Bian Yue looked at him with bright eyes, and she said, "What is there to be afraid of? Can't you find me wherever I go?"

But now, Li Siheng heard Bian Yue say with a smile: "I am used to remembering the way I came here."

"I thought you would say that no matter where you go, Shen Jinci will look for you."

"He will look for me, but I can't always stand there and be a doll that needs to be rescued. I need to have the ability to save myself and be able to stand on my own."

There was a moment of silence, and the hot water in Li Siheng's hand had already cooled down to half lukewarm.

He said, “When did you start thinking that?”

Bian Yue said: "When I found out that the Li family had a hand in my parents' death, I knew I couldn't be willful all my life."

This time, neither of them spoke again.

Until the car stopped in front of a nursing home.

This sanatorium doesn’t even have a specific brand; it’s just standing alone in the mountains.

Bian Yue got out of the car and looked around, only to see a few red brick houses dotted here and there in the deep mountains and dense forests.

"My cousin is here?"

"Yes."

"She has been here for ten years?" Bian Yue looked at Li Siheng in shock, puzzled, "Why has no one in the Bian family discovered it for so long?"

"You will soon know why." Li Siheng said meaningfully.

At this moment, an elderly white-haired man walked out. He wore gold-rimmed glasses, a white coat, and looked like a scholar.

When he saw Li Siheng, he hurriedly said respectfully, "Mr. Li, you are here."

"Doctor Zhang, this is Bian Yue. I'm bringing her to see the patient in Room 1."

The old man called Doctor Zhang looked at Bian Yue with an embarrassed expression, "Miss, you have to be mentally prepared."

Bian Yue's heart sank suddenly. She clenched her fists and looked at Doctor Zhang with a serious voice, "Please take me there now. The patient inside is my cousin. No matter what she becomes, I am mentally prepared."

Doctor Zhang became increasingly embarrassed, and looked at Li Siheng, seeming to be hesitant to speak.

Seeing this, Li Siheng said calmly, "Doctor Zhang, if you have anything to say, just say it directly."

Doctor Zhang's lips trembled, and his old face looked even more embarrassed. He hesitated several times and finally sighed and said, "Well, let's do this. You two follow me."

Bian Yue and Li Siheng followed Dr. Zhang through a forest that seemed to have no end, and stopped in front of a red house that looked very old.