Chapter 242 The Only Fear

Shen Jinci's fingertips brushed Bian Yue's hair, his movements gentle, "Are you worried about me?"

Bian Yue hesitated for only a moment, then nodded, her eyes showing sincerity: "Shen Jinci, I am very worried about you."

Shen Jinci enjoyed it very much. He looked into Bian Yue's eyes, kissed her eyelids, and sighed softly, "Don't worry, I won't go there again."

Bian Yue felt a little relieved. She lowered her head again and looked at the badge in her hand. It was of irregular shape and was completely black with strange dark patterns flowing on it. The material was also very special. Holding it in her hand, she felt an indescribable coldness.

"Is this badge the reason for you to risk going back?" Bian Yue's nose felt sore and she whispered, "Just to prove your past to me?"

"Yes, this is very important to me." Shen Jinci looked at Bian Yue's face seriously. He spoke carefully and said, "Even if it costs me a price, even if I really encounter danger, I am going back this time just to find evidence to prove my identity. Yueyue, I hope you can believe me. I have never lied to you."

Bian Yue only felt that the sourness in her nasal cavity became more severe.

"I know you didn't lie to me, Shen Jinci. I believe everything you told me." Bian Yue shook her head. Her eyes were clear and bright. She slowly raised her eyes and looked at Shen Jinci without blinking. After a pause, she asked, "But what if I never believe it? Will you keep looking for the so-called proof?"

"Yes." Shen Jinci paused, and gently held Bian Yue's cheeks with both hands. His eyes showed cherishment, and his voice became softer. "I will keep looking until you are willing to believe me."

"I believe you, Jinci. I believe everything you said to me. It was my fault before. I shouldn't have doubted you. I didn't trust you completely." Bian Yue held Shen Jinci's hand. The tears in her eyes became more obvious. Her voice was almost choked with sobs: "Can you please... not be disappointed in me."

"Yueyue, I have never been disappointed in you, never." Shen Jinci paused, his eyes fell on the wetness of Bian Yue's eyes, leaned over and kissed her tears, he said: "The only thing I am afraid of is that you will be disappointed in me, because I am not the Shen Jinci in the eyes of the world, and I am not an upright gentleman. I know that my past is bleak, so I have never dared to tell you the truth, Yueyue, I am really afraid of losing you."

They hugged each other and clarified all the previous misunderstandings.

The night was already very deep. Bian Yue curled up in Shen Jinci's arms with her eyes closed. This was the first time she felt at peace in such a long time since the rift between them.

She spoke in a hoarse voice: "By the way, you haven't told me yet, how did you get this badge?"

"I asked my current godfather for this badge. I have a good relationship with him." Shen Jinci kissed Bian Yue's hair and said softly, "So Yueyue doesn't have to worry. No one will hunt me down."

Bian Yue actually didn’t believe that everything would go so smoothly.

The moment Shen Jinci appeared at the airport, although he didn't say anything, the fierce and murderous temperament on his face could not deceive anyone. Bian Yue knew that he must have gone through a lot of trouble to stand in front of her so safely.

But now, she was really very sleepy, so she let herself close her eyes and slowly fell asleep.

When Bian Yue woke up, it was the moment Shen Jinci put her on the bed and left.

She instantly regained her composure, all sleepiness gone, and she slowly opened her eyes on the bed, looking at Shen Jinci's back.

Bian Yue never knew before that she could rely on someone to this extent. He would only leave her side for a short time and she would force herself to wake up despite her sleepiness.

It was not until Shen Jinci walked into the bathroom that Bian Yue blinked slowly. The screen of the mobile phone beside her lit up. Bian Yue picked up the phone and saw the headlines on it. It was the front-page headlines about Li Siheng's death and Zhuang Jie Ning and Tang Yuwei making a scene in the hospital.

Before Shen Jinci returned to Bian Yue, all her emotions were suppressed by Bian Yue. She didn't dare to show even the slightest bit of vulnerability, but the person who died was Li Siheng, her most helpless youth. No matter why this person approached her, it could not be erased. He once gave her a carefree youth.

Bian Yue blinked, then realized that her wet tears were falling.

She felt like she was holding a hot potato, trembled for a moment, and threw the phone aside.

A huge sadness engulfed her. She sat up almost helplessly and looked towards the bathroom.

The next moment, Bian Yue stood up.

She walked very slowly, barefoot on the cold ground, feeling as if she had difficulty breathing.

An unknown amount of time had passed before Bian Yue finally reached the bathroom. She raised her hand and was about to knock on the door when it was opened from the inside.

Bian Yue's hands were hanging high, motionless, standing opposite Shen Jinci who was wearing a pajamas.

The latter's eyes were calm and gentle. He looked at her tear-stained face without asking any questions and held her in his arms.

Bian Yue stiffened for a moment in his arms, then she tightly grasped his clothes and cried silently.

Shen Jinci frowned. He patted Bian Yue's back again and again, his voice as soft as it could be. "It's okay, Yueyue. I will always be by your side. I won't go anywhere."

Bian Yue didn't say anything, just cried. Shen Jinci then said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gone abroad without discussing it with you. I won't do it again."

He was gentle, almost without any grudges, and tolerated all her emotions.

Bian Yue's heart ached. How could she not know what Shen Jinci's words to her meant at this moment.

She looked up at him and finally spoke, her voice trembling, "Jin Ci, you'll be fine, right? Nothing will ever happen to you, right?"

"Yes, when Yueyue gets old, I will still take care of her. I will take good care of myself and will not die before Yueyue." He spoke softly and calmly, and Bian Yue's emotions finally calmed down.

Shen Jinci picked her up and walked towards the sofa.

He put Bian Yue down, bent over, and said softly, "I'll go get you a glass of water."

Bian Yue suddenly opened her eyes wide. She saw the wound on Shen Jinci's chest. It was such a shocking wound that even had blood oozing out.
He hadn't intended to tell me, but the wound was exposed because his clothes were pulled when he hugged me just now.

But he remained calm, as if nothing had happened.

When Shen Jinci stood up, Bian Yue tightly grasped his wrist. She stared at him blankly, tears falling again.

Shen Jinci squatted down and coaxed her gently: "What's wrong? Are you scared of being alone?"