Chapter 251 Unforgettable
The prose poem in Bian Shu's hand fell to the ground. She was distracted and tried to pick it up. What she saw was the man's slender and beautiful fingers. He said, "Let me help you."
Bian Shu never liked obscure poems, nor did she like the so-called sad and sorrowful recitations.
She was simply holding the prose poem to block out the sun.
But at this moment, she watched Ji Anshen pick up the prose poem and read it carefully. The sunlight fell on his bookish face and his frameless glasses showed his elegant temperament.
He smiled, with dimples on the corners of his lips, looking particularly warm. He said, "Goethe? I like him too."
Bian Shu didn't want to tell him that she certainly didn't like these poems. In fact, she just stared at him quietly, with wet sweat on her palms.
She said against her will, "Yes, his lyric poetry is beautiful."
What is beautiful is not the lyric poem, but the feeling of first love.
Bian Shu fell in love with her tutor, a young, weak and gentle man.
He would appear in front of her on time at two o'clock every afternoon, with the soft fragrance left by the sun on his body.
He likes to use a fountain pen, and his handwriting is sharp and has a majestic aura that does not match his face.
In her dull and boring life, Bian Shu suddenly had hope.
She likes the feeling of waiting, waiting for someone to come to her on time every day.
Bian Yue was still a child that year. Bian Shu would talk to her a lot, and Bian Yue would open her innocent almond eyes and look at her obediently. She said, "Sister, why does this teacher always wear the same clothes?"
Only then did Bian Shu pull herself out of the world she was immersed in. She realized that Ji Anshen might not have an easy life.
Finally one day, she followed him back to his residence.
It was a small and cramped pigeon coop in Kowloon City. The street lights were dim and filled with people of all kinds.
Bian Shu looked at Ji Anshen's back, which looked thin and dull under the soft light.
He walked on the mixed streets, feeling out of place with everything here.
Perhaps, the person who is even more out of tune is myself.
Bian Shu was unwilling to admit it.
It was not until the two of them walked up the narrow and tall stairs, one after the other, that Ji Anshen finally realized that there was someone behind him. He turned around in surprise and saw Bian Shu standing behind him in a blue dress.
"Ms. Bian Shu."
He called her Miss, instead of calling her Bian Shu at home.
Obviously, he was the one standing in a high position at this moment, but his face was stiff, as if he would crawl at Bian Shu's feet in the next second.
Bian Shu also looked at him, her heart tightening for some reason. For the first time, she felt a kind of distressed feeling. Bian Shu whispered, "Teacher Ji, do you live here?"
"Yes, Miss Bian Shu, this place is not suitable for you. It's too messy. You should go home soon." Ji Anshen said, paused, and walked down. The dim light made his figure bend and fold.
He walked up to Bian Shu, his eyes full of concern, "Miss Bian Shu, can I take you home?"
Bian Shu knew that she might have done something wrong.
He shouldn't have come here.
To break into someone's life so rashly is too irrational no matter how you look at it.
Bian Shu's face was gloomy under the light. She lowered her head and apologized, "I'm sorry, Teacher Ji, I didn't mean to follow you." The man smiled tolerantly and said softly, "It's okay, I'll take you home, let's go."
So, Bian Shu followed Ji Anshen and walked out of the narrow alley filled with complex smells.
Ji Anshen lowered his head to look at her, and said in a low, hoarse voice, "What's the matter with you looking for me?"
Bian Shu's heart was beating fast. At the entrance of the street, there was a busy road outside. She listened to the noise of the traffic and said nervously, "Teacher Ji, I didn't know you had such a hard time."
Ji Anshen was stunned for a moment, and then he smiled very sincerely.
It was the first time that Bian Shu saw Ji Anshen smile like this. His eyebrows relaxed, and with indescribable tenderness, he slowly said: "Bian Shu, in fact, everyone in this world is very hard. Thank you for feeling sorry for me, but it is not necessary. Compared with most people, I am also living a good life."
Bian Shu was very young at that time, she was only 17 years old, and Ji Anshen's life was already the worst life she could imagine.
Bian Shu didn't understand how it could get even worse.
She looked confused and said anxiously, "Teacher Ji, but you don't have to live like this!"
"No need?"
"I am the daughter of the Bian family. If you date me, you will have everything. You don't have to work hard!" Bian Shu had already said this, so she just said in one go: "Ji Anshen! I like you! I like you very much!"
Ji Anshen's face was filled with surprise at first, and then fear appeared on his face.
The next moment, Bian Shu heard words from his mouth that she would never forget.
Ji Anshen said: "Bian Shu, with your status, your love is fatal to me."
Before Bian Shu could answer, she didn't understand why Ji Anshen said this to her.
The girl was just immersed in her own pain, and said angrily: "Why don't you like me? What's wrong with me! Ji Anshen, I am the daughter of the Bian family. With my identity, so many famous young masters want to be with me! What right do you have to reject me!"
Of course she had her pride. She was rejected harshly for the first time she confessed her love in her life. Bian Shu didn't want to think about what Ji Anshen's words were implying.
Bian Shu looked at him aggrieved and unwilling, but the latter sighed. After that, he said nothing and turned to walk towards the street.
"Go away! If you have the guts, don't show up in front of me again!" Bian Shu said angrily, "Ji Anshen, you will regret it!"
But the person who regretted was not Ji Anshen, but Bian Shu.
From the next day on, Ji Anshen never came to the Bian family again.
At first, Bian Shu could pretend nothing had happened, but as time went on, she became uneasy, and even other people in the Bian family noticed something was wrong.
But no one connected this incident with an insignificant tutor.
The rainy season has arrived in Hong Kong. Bian Shu looked at the fierce wind and pouring rain outside the window, looked at the housekeeper worriedly, and finally couldn't help asking: "Is Teacher Ji coming today?"
"Miss, don't you know?" The housekeeper looked at Bian Shu in surprise.
Bian Shu's heart went cold. She stared at the housekeeper blankly and subconsciously clenched her fists. "What do I know?"
"Ji Anshen has resigned. Chairman Ji is looking for a new tutor for you, who will be here soon." The housekeeper said in a gentle voice, "Don't worry, your studies will not be delayed at all."
Bian Shu finally understood that what Ji Anshen rejected was not just her love.
What he rejected was his entire being.
He didn't even want to have anything to do with himself anymore.