Chapter 282: Fear of Retribution

Bian Shu never thought that he loved her.

How could it be love? He clearly didn't care about anything.

But now, after so many years, she suddenly realized that during the days and nights they spent together, he was indeed fond of her.

At that moment, the empty heart that had been empty many years ago seemed to be suddenly filled.

He loves her, so Bian Shu suddenly feels that her life in this world is not wasted.

Bian Shu stood in front of the window, pushed it open, and felt the sultry wind blowing across her face, just like that late summer many years ago when she stood in front of the window and looked into the distance.

Ji Anshen held an umbrella and walked slowly towards him in the misty rain.
Bian Yue woke up from vomiting in the middle of the night, stood at the washstand, and looked at his pale face in the mirror.

In the mirror, Shen Jinci's face was reflected with worry. He was standing behind her, frowning at her.

"Yueyue, when was your last period?"

Bian Yue's face changed, and she looked a little confused. She said, "I...I don't remember it very well."

Shen Jinci realized something belatedly.

He held her shoulders, with a look of hope in his eyes, and said, "I'll take you to the hospital tomorrow, okay?"

Bian Yue understood what Shen Jinci was doubting.

Pregnant.
There is already a baby in your belly, right?
They had always taken precautions in their previous relationships, so even so, was she still pregnant?
Bian Yue looked at Shen Jinci uncertainly, her voice apprehensive, "Will I really do that?"

She had been lonely for too long. Even though she was sure that Shen Jinci would never leave her, she never dared to hope that she could have a child in her belly.

Bian Yue didn't think she was capable of taking care of a child.

She was afraid that she would not be able to give the child perfect love.

But Shen Jinci just looked at her uneasy eyes, his hands holding her shoulders, and said every word seriously: "Yueyue, if it's true, do you want it?"

Bian Yue didn’t know.

For her, it is not a question of whether she wants to do it, but whether she can do it.

Can she have a child?

Can she raise her?

Bian Yue didn’t know.

And in Shen Jinci's eyes, her hesitation looked more like a rejection.

The light in the man's eyes dimmed slightly. He calmly tidied up her hair and raised the corners of his lips, gently saying, "It's okay. If Yueyue doesn't want this child, we can give it up. Everything is up to you."

Bian Yue wanted to explain, but when the words came to her lips, she didn't know how to start.

Shen Jinci hugged her and kissed her cheek, saying, "It's okay, Yueyue. I respect whatever decision you make."

That night, Bian Yue woke up again. She was awakened by Bian Shu's attending physician. The doctor spoke nervously on the phone and said, "Miss Bian, your sister committed suicide."

Bian Yue's brain suddenly went blank.

All the abnormal behaviors of Bian Shu during this period of time had answers at this moment.

She dealt with Ji Anshen's last wish, and now, she didn't want to live anymore. Everything could be given up, and the one she cared about most was Ji Anshen.

The hospital was deserted and quiet late at night, filled with the strange smell of disinfectant.

Bian Yue stood at the door of the operating room. Her vision was blurred and tears were falling unconsciously. She stared blankly at the light in the operating room which was always on.

Shen Jinci's spirit was even more tense than Bian Yue's. He looked at her numb face and tried to express his comfort carefully, not knowing where to start.

Not far away, Wen Jiao and Shen Zhaoli rushed over, both with slightly anxious looks on their faces.

"What's wrong?" Wen Jiao asked nervously as he walked in front of Bian Yue, "What did the doctor say?"

Bian Yue was triggered by the key words and repeated the doctor's words stiffly and bluntly, her voice hoarse, "The doctor said the situation is not optimistic and asked me to be mentally prepared."

Wen Jiao was stunned and his expression became more nervous.

But soon, she calmed down, smiled at Bian Yue, and said, "It's okay, Yueyue, nothing will happen, I'm here with you."

With Wen Jiao's comfort, Shen Jinci looked at Bian Yue's dazed look and said softly, "Yueyue, Zhao Li and I have something to discuss. Can you wait for us here for a while?"

Bian Yue came back to her senses and smiled at Shen Jinci, "Okay."

Shen Jinci had a complicated expression. He paused for a moment, then turned and left.

Shen Zhaoli looked at Shen Jinci's departing back and hurriedly followed. A few minutes later, the two stood at the edge of the balcony. The sky was drizzling with rain, intermittent.

Shen Zhaoli stood beside Shen Jinci, the two stood side by side. Shen Zhaoli lit a cigarette and frowned, "How is Bian Shu?"

"She must have died. When she attempted suicide, she cut the artery in her wrist with a knife. She lost too much blood and was in shock when the doctor found her." Shen Jinci's tone was flat, but one could hear the depression hidden in his voice.

Shen Zhaoli frowned even more deeply. He took a deep puff of his cigarette and said slowly, "I found out Li Siheng's exact location, but I was still a step too late and didn't find him."

"It doesn't matter. This matter is not important. As long as he doesn't bother Bian Yue, I can treat him as dead."

Shen Zhaoli raised his eyebrows and looked at Shen Jinci in slight surprise. Through the light smoke and mist, the man's expression became fainter. Shen Zhaoli couldn't see clearly, but he couldn't help but smile and said nonchalantly: "You were not such a soft-hearted person before."

"Bian Yue might be pregnant."

The smile on Shen Zhaoli's lips froze, "What?"

"Do you know what I was thinking the moment I realized Yueyue might be pregnant?" Shen Jinci pulled the corners of his lips slightly, a little dark, his voice was as calm as if it had been fished out of frozen water, without any ripples, "I was thinking, I have done so many shameful things before, if someone threatens me with Bian Yue, what should I do?"

"Those things are in the past. Your past has nothing to do with Shen Jinci." Shen Zhaoli paused and lowered his voice, "You are Shen Jinci now."

"I am also glad that I am standing here now. I am Shen Jinci. Because of me, I can abandon everything in the past. Now, I don't want to be involved in it even a little bit."

When Shen Jinci said this, he looked at Shen Zhaoli calmly, his elegant and noble eyebrows and eyes were full of self-mockery. He said: "Zhaoli, people like me are also afraid of retribution."

At the door of the operating room, Bian Yue felt some pain in her legs.

She looked at Wen Jiao beside her and whispered, "Jiao Jiao, help me sit down."

Wen Jiao hurriedly did as he was told.

However, the moment Bian Yue sat down, the tightly closed door of the operating room suddenly opened.

The doctor in blue surgical gown walked out with a serious look on his face. His eyes fell on Bian Yue, and he seemed to be hesitant to speak.

Bian Yue felt dizzy for a while, and forced herself to stand up again, "Doctor, how is my sister?"